today is a dunno lei lor... Maybe i should written it in a profound way where not many people will understand. I am once glad to be one of your listening ears for you to hold on further. But now i do realise that what i have been doing isnt worth a cents at all. If you are disappointed with people around you, to be frankly speaking , i am also disappointed with the situation now. Friends can be like a glass, so fragile. Once it break, it may be mended but took a long time . I Always Find it hard to explain all this to you because i knew that you are not as tough as we are. I know your character too well, you didnt like to be critise by any people.... I didnt wanna comment much on you because like i say, you are not as tough as singaporean.

People changes, yup i admit i change. But i change myself to be more attentive in class after i got the pressure from the scholarship. I wanna maintain my GPA to 3.5 this sem so that i could continue the scholarship next 2 yrs. I always wanted to tell u this, but why on earth did i hold back my words ? Why ? i didnt understand myself at all.

I wanted to tell you that it isnt that i didnt like to go to your house . However, i am saving money now for other purposes . Going to your house need time and energy and money . After school and go to ur house is tiring for me. I have no more energy after lesson and transportation cost are quite costly also.. I simply have no idea when you are not happy with me. I know you always come to school with a fake smile and bring a heavy heart to school . i wanted to tell you to become independent. Whenever , i tried to speak up, something hold me back again .. I realised that i have no position to tell you off because i am not 100 % independent myself too. But at least, wad the basic thing to do with friends is to Talk and communicate . If maintaining a non verbal communicate, how to know you more? . I am an easy going person to mix with, maybe that is the reason why i am comfortable to you last time.

I am disappointed with the attitude you have gaven me in your work :( Truely disappointed .. i am disappointed to hear ur murmur... "Not a Friend of mine anymore" i dont know what u trying to mean , but those words that come out from your mouth stabbed my heart.

I am DISAPPOINTED. If you dont treat me like a friend, why bother putting your mask on and smile like nothing has happened ? When thing is changing .. i try to help you... in your work... but giving me that murmur comment doesnt sound an encouragement to me...

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