I totally dread monday today , the most suck day i ever had in my life in school.. There is some internal conflict going on between in our group. actually most of the group are having internal conflict already. It is like a BGR ... somehow... love at first sight but can call it off after a few months when you know that person well.. Haiz... me and val seriously super disappointed with her ..why do we have to feel like begging her to do it with us for the project .. if i were her, i will ask people first for paper , hw, project... everything have to tell her ... and she has no initive in asking .. but seriously, i wont help her take any notes or anything for the time being if she is not coming to school. i had enough of it .. really ENOUGH !

I dont own her anything , why the Hell should i do all this shit ? Treating like an accompany tool is bad enough, why the hell should i help her take any notes or anything if she dont appreciate it. Grouping with her is like doing it solo myself, what is the use of grouping... and she dont even feel guilty about it ... i dont own her.. I HAD ENOUGH... since she said :"ALONE IS THE BEST" go on... Go and do it alone.. go and become anti - social ... people are there trying to help her with the best of their ability .. what do we get .. A sickening murmur from her ... and it is bad enough to knock it down... if u wan, come on.... tell us and u do it all alone.. I dont OWN YOU... THIS STUPID GREEN LITTLE WORLD DONT OWN YOU.. dont be so pampered ... to think of that ... living in a different culture, please adapt to the country you are living in... not vice versa.. i know it may sound bad... maybe i am not the right "Bestie" for you.. You can Choose other Bestie in this singapore...seriously i am not joking ...

Dont give us attitude like J... think her eyes super big or what... stare at us hard again, i seriously scream at her... she wad... think her eyes big like CB can stare hard at ppl giving us a hateful look...

i dont understand why J join in our group... but if she continue to join us in every little of our project because u pull her in or wadever.... i am going to just get out from the grp and do it on my own ... i dont OWN ANYONE !!!! i am so getting irritated because firstly.. the model you didnt do anything alr.. ask you to do or help me on wed .. you go and watch MOVIE... CLEVER ... and den thursday you are LATE... ok, FORGET IT .. and the FUCKEST thing is YOU keep saying MY ATTITUDE CHANGED !!! FOCUS ON WORK CAN ANOT...i rather you put in effort with me to do work ... rather than keep telling me how much i changed... do u need me to remind why u come to BCA for ?? i am SERIOUSLY GETTING F UP !!

This MONDAY is super BAD enough ! ok since val bf ask val to talk to you.. i am ok with it ... not happy or anything, say it out ... dont hide behind a mask and smile and pretend nothing has happened can anot.. you make people wonder what is your true mask.. and stop being so CHILDISH to do project when val is away ! Cmon, Can you PLEASE slightly FEEL what she is FEELING ... if ppl do tt to you, will u like it ????!? TREAT PPL AS EQUALLY... CMON! Can you PLEASE JOLLY WELL Think of Other ppl before asking that people to do the same thing with you.. THINK OF PPL POCKET, TIME , ENERGY AND FEELING ...PLEASE THINK THINK THINK! ASKING ME TO ACCOMPANY U TO TAKE A ENG TEST BECAUSE U DON WANNA BE ALONE... CAN U PLS THINK OF ME ANOT ... CAN A NOT... THINK HOW I FEEL ... I FEEL LIKE AN ACCOMPANY TOOL... WHEN YOUR BF IS AROUND, YOU JUST GO OUT WITH UR BF... IF YOUR BF IS NOT ARD, U STICK WITH ME... ASKING U GO OUT TO EAT WITH US... YOU REJECTED EVERY OFFER...ISNT YOUR DOING MAKE ME FEEL LIKE AN "ACCOMPANY TOOL"???? WAD ARE U DOING??? WAKE UP... IN THIS SOCIETY, YOU HAVE TO MATURED AND THINK ! YOU CANT TAKE SCHOOL AS YOUR HOME... WITH EVERYONE PROTECTING YOU... YOU ARE IN THE JUNGLE... BEING THROWN IN THERE... HOW ARE YOU GOING TO SURVIVE ?? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF THAT ??

I GUESS I CANT BE YOUR ANGEL. PLEASE LOOK FOR ANOTHER ANGEL TO BE YOUR ANGEL. BYE. LET JUST BE FRIEND IF YOU OPEN YOUR HEART TO LET US IN. IF NOT, I GUESS , I HAVE TO PUT A FULLSTOP TO IT.

BYE.