Recently , i seem to drop of hairs due to all my worries about my future .. it was really tough for me to hang on from Year 1 to Year 3 of intelligent Building Technology. I do not really enjoy Engineering that much, but i do not have a choice that time. My L1R4 is 21 . That day, i was crying so sadly but i couldnt do much to change my 'O' Levels results . I invested time and youth in my 'O' Levels but it turn out to be fruitless. Well , what past has gone, now here come the future.

In year 1 , i didnt really hate my IBT cause i find it very excitied to learn lots of things.

In year 2 , i started to fret because it was getting a little bit tougher due to java , microcontroller... and more programming stuffs. I started to doubt myself whether am i able to cope further .

Alright, everything goes peacefully until i reach year 3. Year 3 make me realise one thing,i have no interest in this Course. i find it hard for me to do technical works when i dont really like to fix things or 24 hrs stand by desk work. I am an outgoing person, i likes to walk and work concurrently. That's what i am. I am a active person although i seldom pick up sports.

I force myself to carry on with this IBT during this past 3 years. It wasnt motivation that keeps me going , it was the Marks and grade that keep me going. I knew my path was wrong, but i cant return . Therefore , i keep on walking to the path of nowhere.

Until 2 days ago, Uncle ask me questions which prompt me to think what i really wants... Go For It... Go for the things you likes...from young, i love to draw...

drawing allows me to become a different person. When i am fully immersed into my drawing, i can draw and draw without drinking nor eating until my mum scolded me ... den i go for a bite. Whenever, i closed my teary ears, i think of beautiful things surrounding me..i think of new and creative things ... birds,butterfly,nature going into my head... ideas just flow in without stopping..

Should i take a course more into design? i been thinking for these 2 days ...

what do i really wants ?
what do i really likes?

When with my path be opened ?
let me listen to my heart once, just for once..